Letting go and setting the record straight.

Today I let one of my children move (the one in the rust shirt) I was sad, but I know as a mother we have to let our children grow up and move on. In the past things like this would have caused me to head to the nearest food I could find, but today I really haven't had much of an appetite.  Thank goodness for the WW 5k today, because after we left the airport I went home changed my clothes and planned to head to the park. I couldn't find my Ipod... that really puts a wrench in things, I have certain music I do my cardio to  I really thought I am not going to go. Thanks to my husband saving the day he gave me his Ipod, and told me he had Lady GaGa on it, because that is one of the Artists I like to listen to when I walk. I got to the park and started walking, I walked a while with a nice lady I met who attends a different meeting, we had a nice pleasant talk about our WW meeting and leaders, and how she really liked the leader she had because he kept her motivated. You know I feel the same way about my leader Kris, I have had some really good talks with her about the challenges I have faced with my weight loss journey.  I left the lady and told her to have a nice walk and went on my way, I needed to walk fast today to get my feelings of sadness off my chest and clear my head. I was feeling a little blue, cause my daughter had left, her twin sister is now alone, and my friend Nicole wasn't there with me, and I was going to finish this walk with nobody to see me finish...(i know poor me.. boo hoo) I got close to the finish line  and noticed a cute guy there with a camera, it was Jose! He had got on his motorcycle and came to the park with my camera, 

 I was so glad to see him there! Then when I crossed the finish line who else came across but my leader Kris, who again we had a nice chat.  We talked about how it had come to my attention that one of my followers thinks I am annoyed with her, because she thinks I  am jealous of how fast she is losing weight. Yes, I had said in a previous post how one of my biggest struggles is comparing myself to others that are losing faster.  I want this person to know that the person I had a problem with is not YOU!  It was a person that I had been friends with for 15 years, we had tried WW together several times and she always quit on the 3rd week. Well this time when we joined it clicked for her and she dropped her weight fast. But what was hard for me was she would come in each week and spread her book out and show how much she had lost.. I was always a big cheerleader for her, ALWAYS every week I congratulated her. One week she said to me, (when I had only lost .2 or so) how do you keep coming when you have such small losses? HOW??? Well I told her I just want to make it to goal I don't care how long it takes. But really what I wanted to say to her was HOW can you say that to me, it really hurt my feelings. I tried to keep going with her to weekly weigh ins, and I did for a month or so after she said it, but found I was letting my envy of her success sabotage my weight loss, so  I quit going on Monday nights and changed to Thursdays. That is when I met Kris, and I told her my story, and she has helped me work through this. Well, it has taken me probably about 6 months to get to a point where I realize we all lose weight at different rates.  And in the meantime I have apologized to my friend, I told her face to face that she was the reason I quit going with her, I told her I was jealous of her success and that I was sorry for ending our friendship and guess, what today when I finished my race she had texted me wanting to know where I was in the park and asked if I needed a hug because she knew my daughter had left. We met, we hugged and she told me how proud she was of me, and I told her she was one of my inspirations.
So You, who think I am jealous of your weight loss are wrong. No I am happy for you I am happy for any one who is trying to lead a healthier lifestyle, and I am losing my weight at a rate that is healthy for my body.
Like our leader Kris said, Slow and Steady wins the race!
 Which by the way I knocked 2 minutes off the time it normally takes me to walk 3.1 miles!


                                          Then I found this.. this is what I want for my 50# reward!